I cannot even put into words how much you scared me last night.

I hope you do in fact call me late at night or in the early hours this morning, as it is now quite unlikely that i shall be sleeping.

I am pretty sure you are the best friend I have ever had.

When I press 'poke' on facebook, I feel like I am standing next to you, poking your arm repeatedly and saying 'hey, hey you. I am still here. You are still a liar and I am still here to see through it. hey, I'm still here for you. Don't suffer alone, I'm right here worrying about you, wanting you to call.'

Its not that I want you to need help, but I know you already do. I want you to admit that you need it, and ask for it. As much as I would like to, I can't just call you up at all hours of the night to check if you happen to be having a dark moment.

And trust me, it is getting hard to stop myself...





/poke

The little bits of your lives I can gather from your blogs give me a window into the ways we will all explode.

I just noticed that even though 'you' doesn't just mean you, almost of the of the ones with that label are about you. I need something else to worry about.

I leave your facebook chat open when you leave, because I need to know when you are there.
I need to know you are OK, because when I don't see you for a certain amount of time, I get so worried I feel sick.

I'd fight anyone and anything to save you.
Including you.

I am so worried about you I feel sick.

I don't want you to go back to her, and I don't know why.

The irony is killing me.

The little things you forget, kill me.

I think you are my real best friend. This seemed a little weird at first, but of course it makes sense. We've been through and worked through so, so much. I think ours is actually one of the most open friendships I have, it has had to be. You are the one who notices me sitting alone with my head in my hands, you are the one who texts me when I'm sick, the list goes on. Basically, you are the one who remembers to give a damn out of the people I actually see day to day, and I hope that that's a two way thing.
But it's funny, I never ever thought we'd even get back to where we were before, let alone closer, more secure friends. And I never thought I'd be questioning the things I am questioning right now...

there are songs I still cannot listen to

I don't actually think you look like edward cullen