I cannot even put into words how much you scared me last night.

I am reaching the end of my tether.

I hope you do in fact call me late at night or in the early hours this morning, as it is now quite unlikely that i shall be sleeping.

When I press 'poke' on facebook, I feel like I am standing next to you, poking your arm repeatedly and saying 'hey, hey you. I am still here. You are still a liar and I am still here to see through it. hey, I'm still here for you. Don't suffer alone, I'm right here worrying about you, wanting you to call.'

Its not that I want you to need help, but I know you already do. I want you to admit that you need it, and ask for it. As much as I would like to, I can't just call you up at all hours of the night to check if you happen to be having a dark moment.

And trust me, it is getting hard to stop myself...





/poke

I leave your facebook chat open when you leave, because I need to know when you are there.
I need to know you are OK, because when I don't see you for a certain amount of time, I get so worried I feel sick.

I am so worried about you I feel sick.